Heat/Hotness/OMG FREAKIN HAWT

Dear pandas,
IT IS FREAKIN HAWT IN THE WEST COAST!!!! JEEEEZZZZZ!!! ITS LIKE 100 DEGREES OUT HERE!!! I'm dying. Pandas don't do heat....Google it. My parents are traditional asian people. My mom is more flexible than my dad but she's not home and my daddy won't let me use the AC!!!! I sweating just sitting here. I can't focus on summer school homework in heat! Summer school has been such a pain in a pandas butt. Algebra 2.. TT.TT Who would like to tutor their favorite panda?? Any takers? No? *pout. Seriously, there are more letters than EVER!! I hate graphing like so much and now they add a z coordinate. As if graphing didn't take forever before  and I have a test on monday....OTTOKE??!!?!?!??!? I want summer school to end so bad but its taking up so much of my time. I got sick too....I think I caught a common cold. Killing mee...SHINee oppas...I need your comfort. Sadly, I make do with their music. Laters guys..need to TRY to finish my homework.

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^.^ Emily

Mianhae!!

 OMGOMGOMG!!! I am so sorry guys....I know I haven't been updating and stuff. There are just some personal reason that must be dealt with and I have summer activities. To add lemon to the cut, my laptop has been acting like a complete jerk and isn't helping me out at all. For some reason, it has gotten really sensitive after I got it cleaned by a family member and it messes me up when I type. I'm sorry my dear pandas but lemme come up with ideas to make it up to you and yeah. Love you guys

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^.^ Emily

I'm Back~!

 Hi pandas~ I'm back a bit earlier! So there will be a video....maybe...of me in San Diego sooner or later. There will not be specific posts about topics for now because I need to put stuff back and do errands. Anyways, I hope you guys didn't forget me and will continue to read and enjoy. Bai~~!

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^.^ Emily

Update on blogging

Hello there pandas!! So this isn't going to be much of a rant or anything today. It's kinda late and I am using my phone to update the blog. Well I am going on vacation since school's over to San Diego. I have to run laps since I'm missing tennis practice. Oh well, I'll do that when I get back. So I'll be back on Sunday and if I can get access to wifi in San Diego somewhere, I'll try to update. If not, I'll update Monday. Okay everyone? I hope you guys have a nice day/afternoon/evening~! Anyong!

^.^Emily

Fight That Wall

   Hello lovely pandas of the world~ How are you this day? So right now, it is 6:30 pm on a Sunday evening(Is 6:30 considered an evening?LOL). Anyways, I am doing my daily workout video. I'm just starting though and I don't think I can do more than two workout videos a day. Aish...my lazy self. I am trying to lose weight for the summer and have been doing this for a week and I am faced with that wall. You know that wall, where you just love sitting on your couch watching TV with the huge bag of Doritos and just stuffing yourself to the fullest. That lazy wall. My stamina and determination is fading. Right now I am trying my hardest to keep the mindset of eating healthy and staying on track. I have tennis practice every weekday but I am doing specific workouts for certain parts of my body. Anyways, I must refrain from going off track.

With everything you do, you will have to keep a strict mind. After a while, the whole idea of it gets hard and it seem WAYYY easier to give up. Totally normal but it's never good to fall into a trap and giving things up like losing weight, getting better grades, or even just a goal for the day is also normal. The hard part is to keep going and be that abnormal person. You don't want to blend in with the crowd. If you don't like too much attention but still want to stand out for yourself, here you go. Also think of all the reasons you started this. For my people that are trying to lose weight, remember that size jeans that you want to get into. Remember how your friends are getting in relationships are you're not because even though this is sad, people base their opinions on looks and you want to really catch their attention. I think I wrote enough today and I will probably get back to relationships in another blog soon. Panda Emily, out.

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^.^ Emily

Self Esteem

     With high school, or even the start of middle school, there will be moments where people just throw a hammer at your self esteem. It hurts. End of story, no question about it. We all have those moments where you feel so worthless and low compared to everyone else. Whether it is physical, academically, mentally, etc. we feel so degraded. I will give you an example of a person for constantly lowers my self esteem and yet, he consider it a joke or he is just unaware about it. As a teen, it is pretty normal to have ache right? People are already self conscious about it as is. He continues to bring up the topic and uses it against me for whatever reason. Like I was selling candy for my friend's fundraiser and I asked him if he would like to buy any. As a response he said,"I would but I would not like to have ache like you." I believe that my ache is that serious where it should be taken as really significant. Of course we are told to ignore them but in a world where society aims for perfection and you are reminded of it constantly through commercials and the current Abercrombie & Finch controversy. I do believe that it is terrible for them to say those sort of things but their ideals are pretty much what clothing companies look for. Have you seen models lately that are normal? The girls I see are super thin. It's everywhere. Whether you're from America(Victoria Secret Models) or South Korea(SNSD, SHINee, kpop idols in general), they are there making you feel bad you are not them. I find that whenever i feel that my self esteem is becoming seriously low where I am just hating myself, I tend to rely on friends to help me with their kind words and support. It helps me be able to love myself again. If it is something you can change and it won't hurt you very much than change it. If you want to lose weight, then lose a reasonable amount. It all depends on determination and consistency. To conclude, you will be faced with many people and moments that make you hate who you are but you want change to start, you have to be the one to start that. Don't let those people make you hate yourself. In the end of the day you have to love yourself and surround yourself with people you love you the way you are.

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^.^ Emily

Panda-trodution

Hello there~! My name is Emily. Don't worry, my blog won't be this plain soon. Once I learn to be technical with my life, I will gift you guys with it. I have never created a blog before, nor have I ever had a thought about making one until I saw my friend's blog. I was mind blown. I was curious to how I could post songs and rant and share my thoughts on my own little blog. I know I am slightly lacking but with this, I hope to learn. Plus I would like to add that I have a slight hobby with loving pandas. People call it an obsession but nahh. When I created this blog, I looked at some of my friends blogs and saw the deepness with them. Yeah...I can't do that. I am not that deep into looking at life in a specific way but oh well. This blog is also for my rants about people, kpop, and kdramas. I look forward to the future and to your opinions.

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^.^ Emily