Self Esteem

     With high school, or even the start of middle school, there will be moments where people just throw a hammer at your self esteem. It hurts. End of story, no question about it. We all have those moments where you feel so worthless and low compared to everyone else. Whether it is physical, academically, mentally, etc. we feel so degraded. I will give you an example of a person for constantly lowers my self esteem and yet, he consider it a joke or he is just unaware about it. As a teen, it is pretty normal to have ache right? People are already self conscious about it as is. He continues to bring up the topic and uses it against me for whatever reason. Like I was selling candy for my friend's fundraiser and I asked him if he would like to buy any. As a response he said,"I would but I would not like to have ache like you." I believe that my ache is that serious where it should be taken as really significant. Of course we are told to ignore them but in a world where society aims for perfection and you are reminded of it constantly through commercials and the current Abercrombie & Finch controversy. I do believe that it is terrible for them to say those sort of things but their ideals are pretty much what clothing companies look for. Have you seen models lately that are normal? The girls I see are super thin. It's everywhere. Whether you're from America(Victoria Secret Models) or South Korea(SNSD, SHINee, kpop idols in general), they are there making you feel bad you are not them. I find that whenever i feel that my self esteem is becoming seriously low where I am just hating myself, I tend to rely on friends to help me with their kind words and support. It helps me be able to love myself again. If it is something you can change and it won't hurt you very much than change it. If you want to lose weight, then lose a reasonable amount. It all depends on determination and consistency. To conclude, you will be faced with many people and moments that make you hate who you are but you want change to start, you have to be the one to start that. Don't let those people make you hate yourself. In the end of the day you have to love yourself and surround yourself with people you love you the way you are.

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^.^ Emily